saw the guy coming half a mile away, the dust from his pickup blowing across my
cornfield. Not many vehicles use the gravel road past my farm, so Chevy and I
both stopped to watch. By the time the truck was halfway up my lane, the dog
was off the front stoop and running toward him. Tail wagging, tongue lolling.
Chevy never has been much of a guard dog.
The truck had Alberta plates, so the dude
was a long way from home. He took his time climbing down, like he was stiff
from hours of traveling. He limped toward me.
“Cedric Elvis O’Toole?” he said.
I bristled. I’ve heard that little sneer
often enough. My mother saddled me with that name, but she is long dead, and
she couldn’t help her love for Elvis. With his wraparound sunglasses and his
leather cowboy hat pulled low over his eyes, the guy didn’t give much away. But
he wasn’t smiling. About three feet from me he stopped.
“I think you might be my brother.”
Now, I should say here that I have no
brother. There’d only ever been my mother and me when I was growing up. We
lived together out on this worthless scrub farm. She died when I was seventeen,
and no one ever came to claim it from me. The only one of my mother’s relatives
who actually spoke to us was her aunt Penny. Getting pregnant at sixteen was an
unforgivable sin in the O’Toole clan, Aunt Penny said.
So there could be a whole lot of cousins
I know nothing about, but I’d have noticed if there was a brother underfoot.
I said that to the man standing in front
of me. I couldn’t see much of his face, but he was built like an oil drum.
I’m a beanpole, even though I spend most of my days working on my farm and
He grinned. “Half brother, I should have
said. Steve Lilley’s my name.” He shoved out his hand. It was rough and
callused, but his grip was friendly. He gestured to my front stoop.
“Can we sit down, Cedric?” He cocked his
head at me. “Do people really call you that?”
“Only my great aunt when she’s mad at me.
Rick will do.”
Steve limped over to my stoop and eased
himself down. “You got something cold to drink inside?”
Steve made a face. “I guess that will
I went inside to get two Cokes. I don’t
drink the stuff often. It’s so sweet it makes my teeth ache. But there were a
couple of cans in the back of the fridge. I’m guessing they didn’t have an
expiry date. While I was opening them, Steve came into the kitchen and stood
looking around. His eyebrows shot up.
I know the farmhouse is nothing fancy.
It’s about a hundred years old, and my mother couldn’t afford to fix it up. She
put in electric appliances and painted the pine cupboards and the old farm
table bright yellow with blue flowers. But we pretty much left the rest of the
place alone. I live here by myself, and so far it’s suited me fine. I’ve been
thinking I should fix it up a bit now that Jessica is coming over, but that’s a
story for another time. Now I could see it was pretty shabby. I felt the tips
of my ears grow red.
He peered over my shoulder into the
fridge. I grow or raise most of what I eat myself. The fridge had a few
vegetables, milk, eggs and goat cheese. “I don’t have much right now,” I
“I passed a pub in town,” he said. “We
could grab dinner and a couple of beers there instead.”
I thought of all the flapping ears that
would be listening to our conversation. By morning the whole town would know
about Cedric O’Toole’s long-lost brother coming to town. My poor mother had had
enough gossip in her time.
“I’ll fix us something. And I’ve got beer
in the cellar.”
He seemed happy with that news and
settled in to watch. I cut up some goat cheese, homemade bread, peppers and
carrots, and put them all on a tray.
Back outside on the stoop, he downed half
his beer before he said a word. He seemed to be having trouble getting started.
“Your mother dead?” he said finally.
I nodded. “Long time ago.”
“Mine died three months ago.” He drank
more beer. “Cancer. That was a bitch.”
Words have never been my strong suit. But
I know it must be hard to watch someone die bit by bit. “Sorry,” I muttered
when he’d been quiet too long.
“There was just me and her at the end. My
dad died ten years ago. At least, I thought he was my dad. He was the only one
I knew, and I always thought he was my real dad. But when my mom was dying, she
told me he wasn’t.”
I finally saw where this was going. My
heart raced as I waited. He drained his beer can and crushed it in one fist.
“This is hard,” he said. “I’ve been going over it in my mind this whole trip,
how I was going to explain it.”
“You want another beer?” I needed one. I
was about to get the answer to the biggest question of my life, and I wasn’t
sure I was ready. Down in the cellar, I breathed in and out to settle my
“I brought us the case,” I said when I
went back outside. The sun was setting, and long shadows were creeping across
the yard. Steve was scratching Chevy’s ears. “We used to have a dog,” he said.
“God, I loved that dog. When I went into the service, my mother had her put
down. Said she was old and sick, but I’ve always wondered.” He paused and took
a breath. “We grew up in Calgary. That’s the only home I know. My mother said
my real father worked in Fort McMurray during the oil boom. He’d come to
Calgary for his holidays. He met my mother there, one thing led to another. But
when I was a baby, he went east to visit a buddy. Never came back. She never
heard from him again.“
He stopped again to scratch Chevy’s ears
and drink more beer. “Who’s your father, Rick?”
I wasn’t ready to tell him that story
yet. I was already about to jump out of my skin. “Who’s yours?” I shot back.
“They were never married. My mother
called him Wild West, and she said there was a rumor
he had an affair back here. Fathered a kid.”
Wild West? In all the years I’d been
wondering about my dad, the idea he was from out west had never come up. But why
did that name sound familiar?
“Me?” I croaked.
“She thought I should know.”
I was thinking, What
kind of mother drops that bombshell on her deathbed? I thought mine was bad
enough, carrying the secret of my father to her grave. But since I’m not great
with words, only one word came to mind. “Why?”
“I was home on compassionate leave. I’d
just finished three tours in Afghanistan. With this busted-up knee, I was on my
way out of the army. I guess Mom thought finding my dad would give me something
to do when she was gone.”
“So that’s why you’re here? To find him?”
“Not especially. He left my mother with a
two-year-old boy and a pile of grief.” He looked at me, his eyes glinting in
the sunset. Silvery blue, just like mine. “But it would be nice to know if I
had a brother.”